Ashley Otero

Momma this is me

Momma this is me

I am not the person you think I am

I am attracted to women in a way so beautiful

I see the best in people momma

I’m trying to change for you

But momma it’s not working 

I just want to be free momma

I just want to be me momma

Don’t you see momma

I’ve lived so scared to fly as if my wings were cut and my soul can’t escape 

As much as I try I can’t move momma 

You don’t like gays momma 

So I say I’m bi momma

Yet I still see the shame momma

I take it back because I want to be your perfect child momma

You are happy again to find out your child actually is “normal” again 

Momma I’m hurt 

I feel equivalent to dirt momma

It’s all a phase you say 

Little do you know that everyday I pray not to be this way momma

I feel ashamed momma

Now I’ve turned over a new leaf momma 

I’ve decided to live for me momma

I hope one day you can see me as more than a phase

But as your daughter who tried not to be gay