Forgiveness is Hard to Earn


You call

You text

You reach out

But I ignore you everytime

Your hand reaching out from the shadows

That’s all you are though

A shadow, a figment of my imagination now


I love you

And I don’t

Feeling of obligation

Father to daughter

A title 

Not your right


I cared for you

More than you ever cared for me

911

My constant call

For a condition you couldn't control

But you could control your temper

You just chose not to



Threats and tears

Your hand covering our mouths

To make us shut up

Your son and daughter

But so large, it covered our noses

Struggling to breathe

Black spots in my eyes

You don’t remember

Or maybe you just lie

But I always will

And this forgiveness you seek

You’ve done nothing to earn


So I leave you in the shadows

Never brought out to light

The memories 

Of the pain I suffered

Of the pain I persevered

Make me who I am

So I put them in a box

In the back of my mind

Easy to access

And easy to lock

Kara